After I was 12, I believed I would discovered my soulmate. Twelve-year-old me, as an alternative of taking part in video games and watching cartoons, was already excited about heavy ideas like love, dying, and marriage. As an alternative of studying age-appropriate books like The Hunger Games, I sat glued to my mother’s Danielle Steele novels, sitting out of health club class to learn them. I’ve at all times had a romantic streak in me, and when you take a peek behind the door to my childhood room, you will see every kind of dramatic statements etched in, like “Maggie + Kyle = Soulmates.”
After I first met “Kyle” (his identify has been modified, for apparent causes), the idea of soulmates wasn’t so laughable and embarrassing. I used to be a lonely 12-year-old lady who’d lost her mom a couple of years again, and I used to be looking out for love. My author tendencies did not assist both. Although my pals usually made enjoyable of me for it, I lived in a romantic dream world. After I met Kyle, I felt like I would discovered a good friend who really understood me.
For years, we had been youngsters collectively. We sat by one another at school and spent our mornings speaking about Pokémon and different nerdy child issues. He caught up for me if different folks made enjoyable of me. I felt like I may speak to him about something.
Once we had been 14, our friendship developed into one thing extra. This was the daybreak of MSN Messenger, and we began spending our evenings chatting for hours about life, our pals, and our future desires. I would had an enormous crush on one in every of Kyle’s pals for years, and I advised him all about my emotions. He listened empathetically and inspired me to be extra assured in my very own pores and skin. As we bought nearer and nearer, I spotted I had emotions for him. By the point we had been in highschool, we began relationship.
Our teen romance was short-lived although. Regardless of our years of friendship, I wasn’t able to have a boyfriend – I used to be too romantic, too immature. I ended up breaking apart with him for another person and spent a good few years afterward regretting the lack of my finest childhood good friend. However I do not remorse it now.
Generally while you’re younger, you do not understand how completely different you’re from the folks you date.
Because it seems, Kyle and I had been – and are – VERY completely different folks. Generally while you’re younger, you do not understand how completely different you’re from the folks you date. My views and values have modified tremendously since I used to be 14, and figuring out the form of existence Kyle and I every have now, I am assured that we would not have been a superb long-term couple.
Kyle and I’ve spoken a couple of instances in our grownup lives, primarily simply to replace one another on what we’re doing and the way issues are going. He is nonetheless a pleasant man, and I am nonetheless a romantic. However the issue with romantics is that we are inclined to get carried away. If I would stayed with Kyle, I do know I would not be the individual I’m right this moment. It is easy for me to get caught up in different folks – particularly folks I am romantically involved with. Although it was painful on the time, the truth that Kyle and I finally did not date for lengthy was most likely an excellent factor. If we had dated, I most likely would’ve sacrificed a whole lot of who I used to be for him, and I undoubtedly would not have had all of the experiences I’ve had in my teenagers and 20s.